Ko poči srce — Blackbird Archive

← v20n2, Fall 2021

Prehitevam v mraku, ker bi se rad ubil.

Obenem sem globoko hvaležen za vse svoje

življenje. Če se zaljubim, mi poči glava, žalostna

novost. Bedim. Vzamem apaurin. Kot

mlad si ga nisem upal. Hotel sem biti čist.

Tudi zdaj hočem biti čist. Ljubiti se je

lepo, ampak strašno. Poezija h kakršnemukoli

miru ne prispeva. Prispeva k eksplozijam in

bolečinam. To, kako mi žge in tre prsi, bi se lahko

zdelo smešno, če se ne bi začela tam groza in

tema. Ljubezen ubija, danes je svetel dan. Vse

je čisto. Sneg je divje kopnel vse te tri dni.

Spomnim se, kako sva se z Jašo zgražala, ko sva

zvedela: Tito je obiskal sestro. Sestra mu je

ponudila vino in Tito je rekel, pospravi to

kislico. Steklenico mu je odprl šofer. Vsi

šoferji so strašni. Vsi tisti, ki porivajo moje

pesmi v tuje jezike, tako kot jim rečem.

Tomaž Šalamun

Tomaž Šalamun has published more than thirty books of poetry in his home country of Slovenia and is recognized as one of the leading poets of Central Europe. His honors include the Prešeren Fund Prize, the Jenko Prize, a Pushcart Prize, a visiting Fulbright to Columbia University, and a fellowship to the International Writing Program at the University of Iowa. Nine collections of his poetry have been published in English: The Book for My Brother (Harcourt, 2005), Row (Arc Publications, 2005), Blackboards (Saturnalia Books, 2004), Poker (Ugly Duckling, 2003), A Ballad for Metka Krasovec (Twisted Spoon, 2001), Feast (Harcourt Brace, 2000), The Selected Poems of Tomaž Šalamun (Ecco, 1988, edited by Charles Simic), The Four Questions of Melancholy (White Pine, 1997), and The Shepherd, The Hunter (Pedernal, 1992). His poems have been translated into more than twenty languages. Woods and Chalices , translated with Brian Henry, is forthcoming from Harcourt in 2008.